Hey all! I know I've been neglecting this site... but my the looks of my messages it doesn't appear I was missed LOL.... I just wanted to give a quick note to say I'm still around and kicking...

Later

Darcy

SO I dunno if this was the fates testing me or what.... As my last blog talked about... theres this friend of Ryans I can't stand.... So his GF is pregnant and I still had all my books from when I was knocked up. SO I figured I may as well pass them to someonee that could use them... So I told Ryan that the next time he see's his buddy to take him the books.

He also asked me if I still had his friend GF on my friend list on myspace... I don't know... But I guess she wanted to know if she could talk to me... Me assuming it's over myspace, tell him yeah thats OK... well I get a call the next day at work that they're coming over to my house... I ask ryan "what?". I explained to him I thought they ment over the internet and thats crossing a boundry I'm not ready to cross yet. Ryan says OK, he'll call him and tell them not to come and explain, and we hang up.... Well I get home and check my phone (I leave it with the boys during the day) and theres a text just a few minutes before I got home of the friend saying he's getting on the bus and is on his way. So I confront Ryan....

He said he forgot to call... well there was a open mic at the coffe house down the street so Ryan went to play it and I told him to meet them there and take the books. Well he goes to leave... with no books in hand... I remind him to grab them (cause I don't want them at my house... the boundry thing again) and he's on his way.

Well he comes back from playing... apparenty he got a stanging O for his orignals... then he says that the GF wants to say thank you and she's outside..... WTF?!? I thought I made it clear I wasn't to that point yet.. I'm willing ot talk to them over the internet, but I felt betrayed and hurt bu them and not personally ready to talk face to face... So Ryan and I get into a spat... he goes out and tells them that they should just go catch their bus.

He comes inside... we calm down and watch soem TV before bed. As we were getting ready to head that way Ryan remember that he was letting them sit in our car and he needed to go lock it up... He goes out there and guess whos still out there?? Thats right the couple dingus. Apparently duds mom was supposted to come get them and she flaked out now they we're looking for another ride... well by this point they'd been outside (in about to snow weather) for a hour and a half... So I tell Ryan... I'm going to bed, bring them out of the cold and find them a ride.... They can't stay the night but they need to get in where it was warm.

So, as I'm sure you all can assume.... They didn't find a ride.... So I told Ryan that they can stay but they need to be out first thing in the morning.. cause he's still not allowed around me or my son. Oddly my wishes were respected.... I hate to say that some of it seems fishy... If they hadn't walked to my house needlessly they wouldn't have missed their bus.... did Ryan really send them on their way or set me up cause he's left the car (which isn't running at the moment) unlocked for months..... and did they even try to find a ride??

Well regaurdless I couldn't have them out in the cold... so tho I'm still not in the forgiving mood... maybe I got some Karma points out of the deal....

Heres a Pic of Donavans First taste of a Lemon LOL :)

Ok so I'm having an issiue with this kid that Ryan was good friends with, I even considered him a friend myself... But anyhoo.... Id been having off and on problems with him. He's a drug addict, he claims to be in recovery but I don't fully believe him... But back in the day he used to blow off Ryan for either drugs, this one girl, or both. This used to really upset Ry, cause he felt un-important... so that was the begining of my problem. Then when I was pregnant he did nothing but talk shit to Ry, telling him how he should leave me, and I got pregant on purpose to entrap him, and all sort of other stuff. Even with all this, Ryan would still blow off our plans to go see him.

He's also a muscian like my hubby, And has tried to steal the songs that Ryan has wrote. After all this Ryan still wants this guy in his life... I dunno if he's just more forgiving then I am, or if he's nieve'. I dunno.. I don't want him around my son for many reasons... One the drugs... I was addicted to the same stuff he's on. I know first hand what it can cause someone to do. and I don't want my son exposed to that... and selfishly I don't need that temptation around me... Tho I've been clean for almost 7 years, anyone whos done drugs knows you never really stop being an addict.

Then the seconed reason, I'll admit it kinda petty... I'm pissed for him talking all that sh*t about me... Accusing me of things he knew nothing about and trying to talk Ryan into leaving me. It's been almost a year, maybe I should just let it go... But it's taken this long for him to even try to pretend he wants to apologize. He messaged me on myspace, saying he wants to talk to me in person and stuff like that. I wrote him back and told him, I'm not quit to that point, explained myself, how I have a hard time forgiving once scorned, but if he's serious to start with the e-mail and maybe we can go from there.

Well today he's taken it upon himself to just hop on a bus and try to come to my house while I'm at work. Ryan calls to tell me and says that "he doesn't know what to do". We discussed this just last night that I don't want this person in my house or around my son... what does he mean he doesnt know what to do! So this results in us spatting. Ry called the guy and said he can't come till 6  (when I'll be off work) and he can meet him somewhere. Then Ryan calls me "he's not coming at all, that should make you happy, blah blah blah".

So am I the one out of line here? When should I be willing to just let it go... am I a bad person if I don't let it go. I honesly wish this person would just disapper out of my world... I wish nothing ill on him, I just don't want him linked to my life.... AHhhh I dunno....

but on a happier note... heres a new cute pic of Donavan, being buddy holly LOL

I found this floatign around the web..... I went and Signed I hope you do too.... I had it labeled before hand about that it's one step closer the our cement haven.... makes me sad onthe inside....

hulloo!!!!

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Well here is bog number two.... I feel like a slacker, I didn't really do anything for samhain... I sent thoughts to my father and the rest of my family and freinds that have passed... I ment to leave food out before I left.... but I forgot to make anything.... lame....

Well my MIL actually took my son for the night... totally shocked me..... sometimes I feel like she doesn't want much to do with my son or husband... but hey what can you do. So I got him dropped off and went and met all my friends at a kereoke bar and hada total blast! well I guess thats all for now :)

Heres a Pic of Donavan in his costume